Thursday, October 9, 2008

Behind This Smile

Behind this smile still the heart is aching, can't get over the pain from losing my little one. I am missing my little girl and can't help but to cry every time her memory refreshed in my mind. I know that she is happy now where she at, that's why i am trying to move on and show to my love ones that i am happy with them. I am just hoping that i can get over with this soon. I need to be occupied so i cannot think of anything that makes me feel like i am worthless. I know GOD loves me and He will take care of me. I do believe that He will not give me trials in life that i can't handle.

21 comments:

""rarejonRez"" said...

ahh... sadness caused by losing a loved one, one's own child at that always pinch the deepest chamber of my heart. i may not truly empathized with you darl, but i understand how sad it is. and GOD knows and understands more.. when all these are over, it will be the sweetest reunion you and ur very own little girl can have when God will reveal in glory and will raise ur little one to reunite with u. Revelation 21:4 is a great assurance for u Darl. :) keep the faith!

Christinehaze is SC's author said...

I admire you Darl's kay for me your one strong woman and mother.

You'll be fine!

Merydith said...

Darl keep yourself busy my dear and know that a lot of people loves you.

BTW, busy kaayo ko sa akong part time job then mag drop pa jud. I will add all your blogs jud pohon. Take Care and welcome to EC!

tx sweetie said...

it's ok to be sad mamu basta dili lang palabian nimo kay naa pud baya nag-asa nimo imong bana ug imong precious son. basta ug makaya pa ok rana.. pero ug d na sulti lang kay tagan ka bato ni Ramini ang batang gamhanan para magamhanan pud nya ka.. jowk!

Anonymous said...

I'm glad and I'm happy for you to see you smile again dai...you take care and God bless.

Michelle said...

Wow, nice and new good looking blog of yours. I like the header and the color combination. Glad your back in the blogging world. Just take it easy Darl. Tough times in life won't last long. There's light after dark. :)

mjsterling said...

I am very happy to see you smiling mamu....after what you have been through wa gyud ka mo surrender..ana man gyud na ang life....dunay mga pagsuway, and always remember after the rain there is always sunshine....just pray lang always...and always remember nga daghan pang nag mahal nimo...Keep on smiling mamu...

mwaaahugs

poray said...

I am so sorry for what happened to you mami. I just read of the bad news. I am sorry too I haven't been visiting your blog. I hope you are okay now.

WebbieLady said...

i was reading this and i felt sad. I just discovered your blog a day ago and i read this today only... and i was also looking at your profile and reading stuffs but the phrase "cabìn be evil when provoked" made me afraid.. ^^

Lisa said...

Sorry to hear that you lost your baby. In everything that happens God has a reason. Just pray to God and He will heal your pain. God loves you Darlene and just trust in Him.

myles said...

God has his own purpose and I know your little angel is now in His hands. Smile always...


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twinks said...

Darl, you're one strong woman, and you're right, God gave you trials in life becuase He knows that you can make it. You're a survivor. I'm happy that you're smiling again. One step at a time you'll recover.
Have faith. :]

Raquel said...

Be strong and accept the reality. Everything happens for a reason. No ones to blame. It's not the end of the world yet so, make yourself happy and think about it, your family is still there who needs you.

Take care and God bless.

PinayWAHM said...

Hi Mommy Darlene....

What a sweet picture of you. We won't know just by looking at that picture that you have been through a very sad experience.

You have received some great pieces of advice and words of wisdom here. Stay strong Mommy Darlene.

Mommy J

Shosh said...

Darlene, I am very sorry to hear this. I only drop by here sporadically and I didn't even know. Your heart must be broken.
My thoughts are with you.

Heart of Rachel said...

Darlene, I'm so sorry to hear what happened. May God help you and your family overcome this sad moment. God bless.

Anonymous said...

i think I am lost here because I seldom visit you and I hope iyou understand. But I really feel sad to leanr about your lost Darlene. Probably why you were gone for quite some time in blogging. I will pary for you
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Twerlyn said...

hello Darl,to see your smile makes your friends feel better, though there is something behind that smile at least nakaka smile kana, that's a good sign that sooner or later madawat na nimo ug maka move on na jud totally..

Ka nice jud sa imong hair buyag, nakita jud nako na sa personal,very long and very shiny oi..YOur page here is shinning too, nindot kaau!take care.

thanks sa pag visit sa page ko Darl, busy lagi perme kay maka online ra ko inig matulog c bb then most of the time kung tulog cia tulog sad ko.

AWanderer said...

Hello Darlene,
I've dropped a few times in your blog. But this was my first time to read some parts of your blog and I am saddened by the lost of your little one. And I truly emphatize for how you feel. Actually, wa pa sab k makaagi sa imong naagian pro isip usa kainahan mafeel naku kng unsa kaha kasakit. I advise, cry whenever u feel like crying..Grieve and sorrow takes time to heal. Evidently, there is light at the end of the tunnel! Cheer up and take care well of yourself and also ur family!Regards.

Ritchelle said...

I can understand jud Darl.I felt the same way too when i lost our little angel,2nd naku nga pregnancy ba.Ako blame ako self pero wa na pod baya me mahimo.Hapit na pod unta ko manganak puhon huhuhu...

Mira said...

Hi Darlene, I'm sorry to hear about this sad news. I don't really know what happened but I'm just putting two and two together. You are doing the right thing of keeping yourself busy and divert your mind to something more productive. I know with the grace of God you'll get through this ordeal, He will be with you in your journey. Stay strong and faithful. Have a great day.
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