Father's Death Anniversary

Today is my father's death anniversary. It doesn't really mean much to me because of the bad memories he left me. He's not been a good father and not being responsible to us his children. When he was still alive and active, he would prefer to be with his good friends than doing something fun to his family. He is not a good example father to us his children. That's why when i married my husband and saw how protective and loving he is to our oldest son, i was very happy. I told myself that our kids is going to have a good example, a good father figure in the family, unlike my father. It is sad to know that he didn't mean much to me although i should be still thankful to him because if he wasn't here in the world, i wouldn't be here as well. And because i am child, although i didn't feel that from him, i still am praying that he finds peace in wherever he is at now.