So So Sad

I just phoned my mother earlier and made me sad knowing about her situation. She is now at the hospital because she is feeling so dizzy again. She told me that she just talked to her doctor and told her that her heart is not getting any better. I already know that though, it's just that, that knowing she is not doing better makes me really sad because i am too far away from her. I just wish that i could just fly there right away anytime i wanted to be there, but that's hard for me to do financially and my situation as well. I have a preschooler to take care of and i have a little one too, plus my husband that needs me here. It is indeed hard to be far apart from my mother, she is not well and i am just worried what might have happen to her.