My Baby Doll Is Growing So Fast

Lately i am feeling like i want to have another baby, but it is impossible for me to get pregnant again because sad to say that i am already fixed. I decided to get my tubes tied before i delivered this boy, my third child. I had so many health problems when i was still bearing this child. At my seven months pregnancy, i can barely walk for my tummy was so big and hanging out so low. And i felt miserable the whole time when i still had him in my tummy.

Now that he is growing so fast, i can't help myself not to get envy to mothers that just barely delivered their babies, it makes me want to have another one, feeling so hungry of a newborn. I asked my husband one time that what if i want to adopt a girl, would he say yes? But unfortunately he disagreed of my idea, he said, first thing is, probably we will be denied for we have two kids of our own already, and secondly, it'll be too much for me, i will be starting all over again. I don't really care though, i have had that experience, all i want now is to have a baby girl, with blue eyes that looks like a doll like this boy in the picture when he was just a newborn!